I usually don't write such things about anyone and my English also isn't the greatest. The reason for writing this and making it public anywhere I can will be revealed if you decide to read the entire thing. A short introduction: My name is Lamina and I'm from Germany (Munich), long-time lurker on many streams on Twitch, including trihex. I never really had a reason to create an account because I don't like to chat. A few weeks ago I've decided to create an account because there are many streamers out there which deserve a subscribtion. After subscribing to trihex, I've discovered his own Discord Channel. I didn't know what it is but I quickly started to like it (#nochill still rules!). One night I was lurking a bit and trihex began to tell a story about himself in Discord, publicly, about how he got catfished and how he would've learned something about true love after the bad experience. There was someone on Discord who copied the entire talk to a Pastebin, but I won't link it since believe it or not, I still respect his personal life and don't want to share something about him which doesn't involve myself as well. After reading everything he wrote, I've decided to hit him up and be motivational. I had many bad experiences in my past and before knowing him, I didn't have any trust to anyone. It still felt like I should say something, to cheer him up, to let him know a bad experience can be something good if you learn from it. We quickly started to talk to each other pretty much every day. It got more personal, like sharing something about our past, about our personality, and after a while it happened... I fell for him. Wonderful personality, similar about so many things and thoughts, and hey, he also looks good, who can deny that? Falling for him made me open up even more, sharing even more, getting more personal, until also he admitted that he has fallen for me. We didn't use the word *love* yet, because obviously it would've been too soon and all it was until this point was a chat-experience, typed out words, nothing more. Day after day we got closer, found out more about each other and had even more similarities, the love was growing. I've asked myself if this is wrong, but also trihex started to open up and told me about his feelings, how we should meet each other and that we're more than friends. So it wasn't one-sided. One day he was pretty quiet, didn't talk that much to me and it felt a bit like he'd be annoyed. Because of being an honest person, I was asking what's wrong with him and before I got the answer, I already knew what's up: He's doubting, he thinks this is just another catfish. In his answer, he also asked me to prove myself, because he doesn't want to fall for another fake, which is understandable and it would've been wrong if he wouldn't doubt. So I did a picture of myself, holding a letter with the date, and also wrote *Tri* on it, since just a date alone wouldn't really prove anything. I never shared any pictures of myself online, but I did it with him; I started to trust again, and had hope something like real love would exist. I still wouldn't share any pictures of myself, but to kinda prove my point here it's pretty much needed. Here is one of the pictures I did for him: http://i.imgur.com/7voJZ1t.jpg This isn't even the first picture I did for him. In total; I did 5 pictures during the time we talked to each other. There's a simple reason to it: One picture wasn't enough for him and also this was understandable and I didn't blame him for that. Both of us said how Trust is the most important thing in a relationship, which pretty much everyone should see that way too. One day he was so much in doubt that I also made a video for him, saying that I can't wait to see him and holding up another letter with this name and the date on it. After the video, which came after 3 timestamp pictures, he said *okay, now I'm all in!*. We fell for each other even more, the shield was down from both sides, there was nothing holding us back. For whoever is in doubt about the truth in this pastebin, I can also upload the video if needed, that's no problem at all. Obviously there was a problem in our relationship, which wasn't trust anymore since neither of us had any doubts left... it was the distance. He's in the US, I'm in Germany, so how's this gonna work out? I always wanted to go to a GDQ-Event, so why shouldn't this be the perfect opportunity to meet each other? I quickly made sure I could go there, *enough money, being free of work*, and after knowing it's possible, we said that's gonna be our first meeting. We wanted to do a lot there, he also offered me to stay in his room and I accepted the offer if I can pay half the room since I don't want him to pay my stay at the hotel. I won't go into more details about our feelings, what we shared with each other and how much more we started to love each other, it's private, even after the bad things he did to me, and I still respect that privacy. What I do have to say though: AGDQ 2016 happens in January, which pretty quickly was too much waiting-time for both of us. We wanted to meet earlier... and because both of us wanted this so much, I started to work longer, also worked in Saturdays, because I wanted to get more days for vacation. It was a success! Today I was supposed to still be with him, but why this didn't happen will follow later on. We were happy with each other, he even sent me messages like; *you're the girl of my dreams*, and one day we even talked about our future. How he wants to visit me when he comes to EU in March and/or July/August, and after that, maybe moving out, together, since just like he does, I also always wanted to move away and both of us imagined this is the right time, because our relationship got better and better. Our relationship became serious, we've talked about a lot, what we wanted to do together, what we feel for each other, how our future looks like, and because it was so serious for both of us, I even talked to my mother about it, who's always listening to me, whether I'm happy or sad doesn't matter. She saw how happy I was and shortly before the day of flying over to meet him, she surprised us with tickets, which would allow me to fly and meet him even earlier than before! After I told him about this surprise, he was super excited and happy, just like I was. That day was probably the greatest we had yet, and I thought it would only get better... At this point I've made a big mistake, which I openly admit to and I won't even try to blame anyone else beside myself. I was in love, all I was able to think about was to meet him, that wonderful man with such a great personality! So I had my flight to Houston, which was the first and only stop. What my mistake was? My mother didn't know too much about him, so she didn't give me the right tickets for the second flight to Lafayette. After realizing this, I started to become afraid and worried, because something I never wanted to do to him was to disappoint him. Sadly I did and I say it again: It was my mistake and I don't deny it. But what happened afterwards wasn't something I'd deserve, because this was my only mistake, and it was a mistake which can be fixed and solved easily. If you don't know how easy, just check a map and see how close Houston and Lafayette are. But he started to doubt again, which to some point I was able to understand again. But after everything I did, just to meet him, to prove myself, to let him know that I really love him, he told me the pictures could be faked with photoshop. I'm no expert about photoshop, but if one of the readers know someone, or are an expert themselves, check the picture as much as you can, it isn't faked, and a reminder: 4 timestamp pictures total up to this point, and 2 videos! He said he wants the timestamp written on my arm, and even though I couldn't fully understand how he still doubts my existence, I did it for him, and here's the picture: http://i.imgur.com/RV5I09M.jpg I could copy & paste the entire conversation we had at this point, but again, I won't because of respect. All you gotta know is that he didn't simply ask... he started to be mean, to blame me, and to hurt me with his words. After all I did for him and everything we shared with each other, any normal relationship would've been so far to kindly ask for a proof, or to just talk with each other normally. He didn't, even after sending him this picture. What else did I do afterwards? I made another video, saying *please trust me*, and again with the timestamp written on my arm. What was he doing? He didn't even appreciate it! All his feelings were gone, like love never existed from his part. He didn't even talk to me like you would talk to a friend. So I've asked him one simple thing: *do you still feel the same, and will you show it when we meet?*, he said Yes. I didn't understand, but I was ok with his decision to be distant again over text-speech, so I made sure to get the correct flight, but before the flight happened, I found out something about him... He cheated the entire time. He's getting lewd messages from so many people and I don't give a fuck if those are all fakes or real girls. But he made me believe he would love me; he made me believe we got a future together; he made me believe he feels the same and there isn't someone else. But I got evidence for it: Him, talking about meeting and having sex to others, which was really nice to discover, am I right? I've lost over 2k Euros for this, I also still got the already bought tickets for AGDQ, and it's for nothing... He abused my trust, he lied to me and played with me the entire time, especially towards the end. I've proven myself multiple times, I've told him personal things about me nobody else knows. And even after another timestamp picture AND video, he played with my feelings, treating me like I'd be some stranger, but still saying he'd feel the same, while he's having other girls the entire time. So this is the streamer so many people like. and why did I write all this? Because I felt like it and because I won't let him get away with the abuse of my feelings. I did everything for this man, never asked for much in return, worked hard to be able to meet him this month, and all he did was playing. This Pastebin is just the beginning, because what he did to me was disgusting. No balls, no personality, no heart, he didn't give a single fuck. Now I don't give a fuck and will make sure everybody knows about what a horrible person he is, and I make sure he'll pay for it. even if all I can achieve is getting my money back, it's still going to be a success. To anyone out there who had a similar experience, no matter if you're male or female: Don't cry, don't fall and don't be sad. Get back the fuck up and fight, because you are worth it! Don't let people hurt you, but show them it was a mistake to treat you badly! This isn't about violence, because hurting back like this isn't what you should do, it would make you even worse than the person that was hurting you. But fight for your rights and show that you felt love and did everything for this person, and it's time to show that nobody can play with your feelings like this! If anybody has any questions, just hit me up in Twitch, my username is: LaminaStar. Send a DM, ask questions, I got nothing to hide. But don't ask for personal informations, don't ask for the talks we had, because I want him to regret his play, but without hurting his personal life and showing it off. But you can ask about evidence, you can ask anything so I can also prove to YOU, that I'm telling the truth. To anyone who read the entire thing, thank you for listening. Continue to watch his stream, continue to support him if you feel like it. This isn't about taking his stream down, this is about letting people know what he did and how he's playing with other peoples feelings.