i dreamt that i was filled with such anger and hate
that i had absorbed it all
and people's unfair actions towards me
justified my unfair actions towards others

and any small slight towards me
or anything dissatisfying at all
meant that i could be horrible in return

a reaction to the outside world
not perfectly matching up with
my desire

the freedom of action
the freedom of expression
and the desire to have things my way
in a world not mine